*nods head*
Aha. So now that we are set and ready to go, I just wanted to start off by saying: love wasn't the topic that I really really wanted to begin with, more like politics *evil grin* but I'm unfortunately not in that "mood" now, so I might as well write about something that I can relate to at the moment.
Love.. well, I'm not going to waste my time and talk about how "intoxicating" it is, you really could tune yourself to any love song and they'd give you a thorough description. I'm, however, here to talk about MY experience, and what do "I" think of it, so shall we start?
#1 Love can be: dangerous
How so? Well, when you're "in love" with a certain human being (at least we hope) you start questioning your opinions and beliefs about everything and anything. Questioning by itself means doubt, so if you are doubting what you believe in, just because that person's one is different, you really have a weak persona. You're just looking for pleasing him/her, by "fitting in"...maybe then they can then change their minds/spot you in the crowd. Now this can be dangerous only when those beliefs and opinions on life are quite important, lets say, religion? Yeah, the big R word. Let me tell you this, most of the time its the girls who fall in this trap. I've seen/heard a lot about women who convert to Islam because of their husbands/boyfriends. Now I'm not saying that that is necessarily bad, but I feel bad when I don't see the opposite; ie men converting to their wives/girlfriends religion/belief. Why is that? Well, I thankfully didn't miss any psychology classes, and I still remember when we were being taught on how women are emotionally driven, while men are mentally driven, and really that's a perfect example here. When the emotion of love is highly concentrated (and its usually in the women) you start to doubt you, and that's dangerous.
#2 Love can be: delusional
Again, when you are stuck in the cobweb of love, and ESPECIALLY when you're not sure if that "loved one" is stuck in it too, you'd actually read in to every single sign, and observe. Is he/she talking about me? Is he/she doing that because of me? and you'd convince yourself in to believing that he/she could be on to something and that's when the big H word comes up. Hope. You start hoping that it would a bigger sign next time, maybe a little clearer, more obvious. To the point where you'll just "hope" that they'll say the 3 words-sentence, marry you and have beautiful kids. That bubble will keep on getting bigger, and that tree will grow taller, by time and some more hope/false signs. Till one day, it bursts, and everything comes down, and you just come back to reality. So basically you've been deluded in to believing in something that really didn't exist in the first place, and all that because of what? Hope? The miserable "what-ifs"? Not Good.
#3 Love can be: blinding
You've been swept up your feet by him/her to a point a little part of your judgmental thinking would start wearing blindfolds. You wouldn't think straight; I mean seriously if you're 1) doubting your beliefs and 2)being deluded then there is no "hope" in getting that part of your brain to start working again. Stupidity follows. HA, especially around them. (more on that in #4) Another "blinding" aspect would be the fact that you're so hopelessly in love with him/her you can't even Think of anyone else. Now this can be good, when "love" is a shared feeling, not singular. If it was you and only you who is in love, then my friend, you are doomed. Because there is nothing else to do really. You're basically in love with the wrong person and there is no way about it. No other potentials to think of. Nada. You know whats even worse? Starting to compare your "loved one" with a potential.
#4 Love can be: embarrassing
Yes. As soon as you spot them, that heart of yours starts pumping like there is no tomorrow. The beats speed up, you start feeling the "heat", breathing hard, could be blushing and your eyes directly move their focus to the very opposite direction from where they're standing. Thats ONLY if you saw them, then can you even imagine what would you do if you actually talked to them? I can only imagine what I'd do, and oh dear it would be helluva embarrassing. Its more of a "I'm-going-to-make-a-fool-out-of-myself-today" thing.
#5 Love can be: confusing
Mixed emotions, one day you'd be "in it" so bad, people would actually see it, while another you'd be pissed off or even sad. Hell, you'd start worrying about his/her problems and feel bad for them and it hurts your heart seeing them hurt the way they do. So all these emotions put in to this "thing" to the point you'd wonder if its really worth all this or not. It confuses you, and that frustrates you, because you hate being indecisive.
#6 Love can be: enlightening
Okay. So I actually want to head to bed, but I feel bad for not having one good thing about "love". So here it is folks. When you love him/her, you discover some parts of yourself while discovering theirs. You mold. You change. and this time not because of them, but because it makes sense. Because you like it. You like the new you. For that you're thankful. For that, you want to know more about them, maybe you could know more about yourself. Discover a new part that you thought never existed. It IS a good feeling really. Change.
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I finished the whole album yaay! Its good. I like "sound of madness" "second chance" but my favourites are "call me" and "if you only knew". I liked some verses from different songs which I can relate to, and they are *drum rolls please* :
-I just saw Hayley's Comet she waved
Said "why you always running in place?"
Even the man in the Moon disappears
somewhere in the Stratosphere
-Sometimes goodbye
is a second chance
Basically the whole of "if you only knew" but what struck me the most is:
-If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that went wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent
Also the whole of "call me" struck home, but here is a few favourites:
-I've said it so many times
I would change my ways
No, nevermind
God knows I've tried
-Call me a sinner, call me a saint
Tell me it's over I'll still love you the same
and finally:
I'll always keep you inside, you healed my
Heart and my life... And you know I try.
Heart and my life... And you know I try.
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